So its happened. A is has been out in the world as long as she was in her mum.
This may seem like an obvious thing to say but my whole world has changed beyond recognition. Some of these changes were expected: there has been a large increase in the number of nappies I have changed compared to 9 months ago, there is a small person who takes up lots of time and I am now a dad.
But my life has changed in ways I did not expect. For one, I am now a stay at home dad and writing this blog. My daughter has changed and grown before my eyes, I suppose I should have known this would happen of course but the speed of development is surprising.
At the start she seemed to me to be a small delicate thing to be handled with care and kept happy at all costs.
The first time I held her, 9 months ago today in the operating theatre at Whittington Hospital, it all felt so unreal. This small, squealing, purple person was ours to care for, love and nurture for the rest of our lives and that was a rather scary thought.
She soon grew. In what seems like no time at all, she has turned into this adventurous, loud, mobile child (she seems less and less baby like with each passing day). We go to Stay and Plays now and as soon as I put her down she is crawling off, usually to pinch some other infant’s toy. She has teeth and is teething again. The smile that we where so mesmerised by when it first appeared is now given frequently and has four good teeth in it.
It hasn’t always been easy. In fact the majority of the time is not easy. Constantly thinking of the needs of another who is entirely your responsibility and has only very basic ways of letting her needs be known is a rather tricky task and I am sure I do not always get it right first time (lately A has been letting me know loudly and angrily when I get it wrong!). It is not easy but it is fun. Watching this small delicate newborn turn into a person is the best thing I have ever done.
There has been crying, laughter, poo, snot, bites, early morning walks and sitting up late. There has been playing and learning, social days and solitary times.
I am 9 months into a journey that lasts the rest of my life. I am so very happy to have A in my life and whilst she has only been a part of it for a small time I cannot now imagine my life without her.
Stay tuned for more about what we get up to. Thanks for reading.